Chaos Is the Great Divide

Continuous and new, there are many things in life that confuse me. Profound thoughts that swim in the ways of my perplexed state are the only things that drive me to understand the things I don't. The simplicity of most of the "headlines" that flash through my mind is the genius that I can't seem to get a grasp of. Like, why do people act the way they do? Is it innate or is it a progressive construction of one's personality and character? I tend to lean toward the latter because assuming that people are the way they are is due to a "predetermined" plan just seems ridiculous to me. I know everyone has their own personal philosophies and I respect them all, well, to an extent. But, philosophies and opinions are the exact same thing no matter how you want to dissect it. Do I think mine are always right? Absolutely! I mean, who the hell wants to admit their opinion is the wrong one? Nobody.

In a world of opinions there is no right or wrong. But, in existing reality there has to be a right and a wrong or everything would just unravel at the seams and chaos would eventually ensue. Collective chaos is what bothers me, though. Much like every other topic that streams through my brain; I have a few philosophies on *chaos*. A couple of them I refer to as "collective chaos" and "controlled chaos".

To me collective chaos is the joining of something to make the surroundings unbearable or unlivable which can be seen around the world. Primarily in world order of armed forces but also in your own town, on your own street, and hell, even in your own house. Collective chaos, in my humble opinion, is the blight that dominates the root, the stem, and eventually the growth of our situation....whatever that may be. Controlled chaos is the happenings of many different things that seem like they're spiraling out of control and all of the sudden fall into place leaving you thinking, "Wow, that turned out to be the best thing that could have happened in that particular situation".

I'm going to shift in terms of music because it's actually much easier to convey it in this way. In music there is something used in improvisational jazz that is called "tension and release". Let me break it down for those who are unfamiliar. In lamans terms, tension and release is when you're listening to something and it just sounds like each person or instrument is doing something totally opposite from the next. Not really melding together as a singular unit but rather phrasing each note to purposely sound different. All the while the goal is to, at some point, join together simultaneously making the music sound like it had never taken a different direction.

So, back to my point, controlled chaos is when you think everything is going wrong but all of the sudden things start falling into place as if the previous happenings were merely a build up for something great. Now, of course I'm partial to controlled chaos, if I had to pick from the two. I mean, who would really want collective chaos and nothing working out in the long run? Not to get too political but I think you can look at the efforts of our military struggles and directly blame it on collective chaos. Maybe it's the trouble in your own town, street, or home that is your particular struggle. Whatever the case, life is about struggle and sacrifice. As much as I would love to say we will someday live in world of peace and harmony it's never going to happen. And, I don't say that in a cynical or pessimistic way...it's just a life truth. Since the first days of man there has been struggle which leads to sacrifice. In any circumstance of chaos take a look at what the initial reason was and almost one-hundred percent of the time I will guarantee you it came from someone's ego. Egos are what have torn civilization apart from days of the Egyptians, Greeks, Mayans, Romans, and now definitely Western civilization. On a smaller scale, egos destroy the very fabric of any relationship, whether it be in business or your home life. In essence, the only way to stop the demise of any relationship is to essentially know when to show humility and not be afraid to admit when you're wrong. And yes, that can be done without compromising your personal philosophies.